Wala na. Tuluyan mo na talaga kong nakalimutan. Natatawa na lang ako sa sarili ko dahil eto ako hanggang ngayon umaasa na maging tayo. Napaka imposible. Pero nais kong malaman mo na sobra kitang minahal. At sobra rin akong nasaktan dahil sa mga pangyayari. I hope one day when we meet agian, I would be able to tell myself that I have already moved on. That Im already happy loving someone else who loves me back. Why do I let myself fall for someone that isnt the one for me? Minsan gusto ko na maawa sa puso ko. Sobra na kasi. Hayyyyy!

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Minsan tinatanong ko na lang ang Diyos kung ano nga ba ang tunay na dahilan kung bakit ko pa nararanasan ang ganitong uri ng sakit. Sobra. Bakit pa kailangang humantong sa ganito ang lahat? Dati, tayo yun close, tayo lagi nag-uusap. Lagi tayo. Ngayon, hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari. Bakit? Bakit mo ipinakita at ipinaramdam sa akin noon na espesyal ako sa iyo kung wala ka naman palang balak talagang mahalin ako? Bakit kailangang mahalin pa kita ng ganito? Bakit kaya hinayaan ng Diyos na mahulog ang loob ko sayo tapos mangyayari pala ang lahat ng ito. Ito na yung kinatatakutan ko. Ang makita kang may kasamang iba. Ang makitang kang mas masaya sa piling ng iba. Di ko alam kung anong dapat kong maramdaman. Sobra na. Minsan naiisip ko na sobrang dami ng sakit na pinagdaanan ng puso ko at di ko alam kung kaya pa nitong magmahal muli. Kung hindi naman pala kami ang para sa isa’t-isa, bakit pa pinaranas ni Lord yung mga bagay dati na sobrang nakapagpasaya din sakin? Bakit hinayaan Nyang mahalin ko ang taong inilaan Nya na pala sa iba? At hindi para sakin? Hindi ko na alam. Masakit na. Manhid na ko. Ano pa bang dapat kong madama sa mga panahong ito? 

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It’s so hard to accept the fact that I’ll remain as a girl who once loved him. I am not liking how 2011 will end. I hope 2012 will be a year when my heartaches will all be vanished away! I hope and pray that I’ll be able to cope with the pain that 2011 brought. God, please help!

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December 12, 2010 and December 12, 2011 

Last year: 

Me: Ayoko wala ko future dun no!

Him: Di bale may future ka naman sakin eh!

This year:

Me: Gf mo? 

Him: Hindi. Pero hindi ko alam God’s will. Magkasama kami sa work!

It seems that he has really fallen with that girl. But why is that everything’s well before? Last year was so fairy tale for me and for him. Now, I need to wake up from the dream and I need to believe that fairy tales are not true and there’s no happy ending with US. :(

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followandreblog:

Putting it back here.

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I know it’s been a while but the pain is still here. It’s just so sad to realize how things turned out for the past few weeks. God is so great that He was able to make me feel His unconditional love. I deeply thank my God for always being there for me especially at the time when I need Him the most. My heart is still hurting but with God, I know that the pain will be worth it. It will help me to be a stronger woman God wants me to be. He will show me His perfect will in my life at His perfect time. Thank you Lord for giving me hope that someday I will soon know the man you truly want me to be with. 

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December 6, 2011

November 30, 2011

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At the beginning of this month, I even told myself that this month would be great! It’s the month when my college friend got married. My friend’s and sister’s birthday were also celebrated this month. Much gatherings and events were done for this month but I never thought this November would also be the month when I will be hurt the most.

I attended a Worship Concert last night ad I can’t still imagine what happened that night. The night when I realized that you are not currently mine. Yes, I am saying currently because I know that in God’s time He will show you what you are lacking now. I am praying for you to realize the things that you have been missing. I believe that God’s time is the best time so I will wait patiently for that to happen. I pray that you will not fall into temptation and you will seek His kingdom first beyond everything. I was really surprised when I saw you that night. I even asked myself if it is really you that I saw and even talked to. I am so much disappointed with what you act and with how the girl acted during that night. You were as if having a relationship.. sweetness and the like that it is really inappropriate for the event. I know you will someday realize my worth. I am just clinging into God’s promises. You will get back on track. I believe that you will come back to God and eventually to me. I miss you dearly. I miss YOU. 

November 29, 2011

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So I think this is the end already. I prayed for this but I guess that’s how our story will end. Not a happy ending. You are not my Prince Charming. It’s just hard to realize that I never had the chance to say what I really feel for you. Perhaps I’m afraid of what your answer will be. I have loved you since the day we met. God will give you someone who is far better than me. We will find our right partners in His perfect time. I thought you had fallen for me too. But that’s the biggest mistake I’ve ever made - to think and feel that way. Yeah, I’m special for you but not with what I expect. I am letting you go now. Good bye! 

November 14, 2011

I’ll save my tears later this evening. I still have lots to do. It really hurts to see things like these. The turn of events these past few days have been so confusing! All I can say is that..  TRUE LOVE HURTS! :(

I really wanna cry right now!

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Ang dami nila nagpapansin, pero ikaw ang gusto kong pumansin sa akin.. Hay, hanggan kelan ba ako maghihintay sayo? 

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Everytime we talk, alam mo kung anong nangyayari? Tumitigil ang mundo. Haha.. Ang OA. Ang saya pala talaga kapag kausap mo yung taong mahal mo. Yung ngiti nya pa lang panalong panalo na. I could say that I’ll miss you but I know para rin naman yun sa’yo. sa atin

Ano bang nangyayari? By just looking at you eh napapangiti na talaga ko. What more can I say? Nung nakaraan lang eh para kong loka loka kakaisip about you. About us. But because of that talk we had yesterday, I can say na God has so many plans for me and you. I just trust His perfect will in our lives. If it’s us, it’s us. If not, I hope it’s still us. Hahaha..

Thanks for making me smile. Thanks also for the butterflies. I love you.